Strand of thoughts.

Last night, I told a girl that I liked her. I know what you're thinking. Who cares, that's so high school of me right? I can't help it, I recently, through a series of events realized that I don't have it in me to be with a girl that i'm not dating. Even if it does take some effort, i just can't escape this want for a relationship of some sort. Maybe we are not about to date, maybe we are. All I know is that getting let down easily is just as bad as being told that you suck, because in the end, it means you just aren't good enough. I'm sort of just scrawling through all of these thoughts. Eh, best friend or girlfriend, I'll take her as either.
-August

The potential dangers of public restrooms.

So the other day, I went to the bathroom and as I sat on the seat, I read this on the wall.

Luckily, I had already prepared, I even stood up and proudly took a picture of my caution.


Thank God for my fear of bare public toilet seats. Oh, and I also saw this on the back wall.

-August

It's a spiral.

A downward slowmoving spiral that sucks you in. And then for some. It stops. It loses it's grasp on my near numbed ankle. It drops me into the infinite void, I fall, in no particular direction. To the stars.

-August

Moving on.

Here I am, posting for maybe the sixth time this month. I guess I've got a lot of empty moments. lonely gaps of time. I love having the opportunity to experience college fully. I can experience everything in college with nothing holding me back, no ties to the outside, no girlfriend holding me down. Don't get me wrong I loved having a girlfriend. If my ex read this she would probably be upset by it. Yes a small thing like what I just said. That is the reason that it is good to be single. Who is upset by what I say? I DON'T CARE!

Good thing. If I never escaped such a life, I would regret later on in life so badly. One thing that I have decided for sure is that I want to move across the the ocean when I graduate. I want to explore and freefall through life for a year or two, or however long it lasts. Then, I will come back to earth and get a solid job and finish paying off my loans. I am very realistic about this. Italy. And London. Maybe Paris. I want to explore. I need to know that where I am living is not any better than everywhere else.

I've also been talking to a lot of different girls. Not too much, but over the past week I have probably introduced myself to four or five. Still, there is just that one girl that turns my stomach to jelly when I see her. I like that feeling. Longing to hangout with her. Ughhhh I asked her to. Mostly I am scared that she finds me disgusting and maybe she wants nothing to do with me. Maybe she is disgusted by me. There's no way for me to find out. Well...maybe there is. I'd rather not know if that is the case. I shall remain infatuated with her until the teenage longing wears off. I love the feeling, I've mentioned it before. Simply amorous. Completely in love with someone that I don't know. Haha, I know I am not, and I know I don't, but it's fun to imagine that she means something to me. I'll settle for a crush. Eh, maybe we will seriously hangout for once when we get freetime.

No. Idea.

-August